I don’t know how to start this. That’s the truth.
For most of my life, I have been navigating the world with a mask—sometimes consciously, sometimes not. That mask has taken different shapes: the people pleaser, the high-achiever, the person who laughs at the right moments, who says the right things, who adapts to keep others comfortable. And it worked. Until it didn’t.
The past few years have been a slow, brutal unmasking. A stripping away of the parts of me that weren’t really me. I’ve come face to face with the reality of who I am beneath all of that, and it’s been both terrifying and liberating.
This website exists because I refuse to hide anymore. I refuse to shape myself to fit into places I was never meant to belong.
I am neurodivergent—Autistic and ADHD, though the diagnosis is still a battle. I am someone who has spent decades untangling the knots of trauma and trying to understand why I am the way I am. Why I have flinched at touch, why I have feared being seen, why intimacy has always felt like a battlefield instead of a safe space. I have traced the outlines of my past with a scalpel, cutting away the lies I told myself for survival. And now, I am here, on the other side of something. Not whole, not fixed—just real.
This is not a blog filled with curated self-improvement or neat little narratives that wrap up with a lesson. This is a place for the truth, even when it’s messy, even when it’s uncomfortable. Because life is messy and uncomfortable.
I will talk about neurodivergence. I will talk about trauma. I will talk about sex, about attraction, about the ways my body and mind have betrayed me and the ways I am learning to make peace with them. I will talk about my past, my desires, my pain, my joy. I will talk about the things I was too afraid to say out loud.
If you are here, reading this, maybe you’re also unmasking. Maybe you’ve also felt lost in a world that was not built for you. Maybe you’ve spent years pretending, and you are tired. If that’s the case, welcome. You don’t have to be anything but yourself here.
This is my space to be me. Finally. And if you resonate with that, then maybe it can be a space for you, too.